If I am lesbian and a Christian what should I do?

I am a lesbian and their is no going straight. the bible makes it clear a homosexual should be put to death. i can"t choose to live alife alone i can;t believe god would want that for me. just like i find it hard that its so evil to be in love with a women, there is a difference in lust and in love and I know the difference well. either I should be put to death.. or i am to live a happy lesbian life with my soulmate whom is female. My struggle is on the level of heaven or hell